Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Delicious Tease Day #32: Skyler White


Sorry I'm a little late today. There's been a substitution for today's contest, so I apologize if there's any confusion. Anyway, I am absolutely thrilled to have my dear friend Skyler White here today, talking about her debut novel, and Falling, Fly. I had the privilege of reading the first part of this book long before it ever got published and I have to say that I was hooked from the very first scene. An incredible wordsmith and storyteller, Skyler has written a beautiful novel about enduring hell and somehow finding redemption. I devoured it the day after it hit the shelves and hope that if you are into paranormal/fantasy you give it a try as well. Today, she's giving away a copy of and Falling, Fly, so don't forget to comment for a chance to win.

Blurb:

In a dark and seedy underground of burned-out rock stars and angels- turned-vampires, a revolutionary neuroscientist and a fallen angel must pit medicine against mythology in an attempt to erase their tortured pasts...but at what cost?
Olivia is a vampire bored with modernity. Tattooist, boyfriend, black-metal singer: everyone you don’t love tastes the same. Since the fall from Eden, she has hungered for love, but fed only on desire. Dominic O’Shaughnessy is a neuroscientist plagued by impossible visions.
When his research and her despair collide in Ireland’s L’Otel Mathillide – a subterranean hell of beauty, demons and dreams – rationalist and angel unite in a clash of desire and damnation that threatens to destroy them both.

Excerpt:

The angel of desire is damned – at least that’s what my tattoo says. Okay, if I’m honest, it just says “dam,” with “ned” still only outlined in purple stencil. But twenty-first century angel that I am, I don’t give a fig for honesty. I want speed. If Ed doesn’t hurry, no lie I can invent will explain what he’ll start to see.
He begins the “N” and glances up from the black halo of letters whose half-circle crowns my pubic mound. “So Olivia, you wanna tell me the story?”
Tattooists are the new priests for the fucked-up and the thrown away. They speak the language of symbol, and administer penance in tiny metallic lashes. They hear confession; and Ed wants mine. Or he thinks he does. And for a minute, amidst the jumbled iconography of Celtic and tribal patterns, the pick-your-own pantheon of Saints Teresa and Betty Boop, I want to tell this handsome neuvo-cleric, bent in genuflection over my crotch, everything I am.
“It’s my birthday,” I say instead.
“Yeah? Happy birthday.” He bows back over the “N,” the electric drill buzz of his pen my only indication that the needle has started again. “You just break up with some guy?”
“No, but give it a couple of hours.”
He laughs, but it’s my birthday and my boyfriend has something special and secretive planned – a dark omen. Men can never resist giving me what they want for my birthday, and so I’ve slept alone that night every year since at least the shift from the Julian calendar. Probably longer.
“Wanna tell me about it?”
“It’s not a story you want to hear,” I tell him.
“You can’t surprise me, girl. I’ve seen it all.” Crouched like a cobbler, Ed hovers inches above my low-rider briefs. I like the way this new style of underwear exposes the unblemished white of my belly for him. I like that it conceals what would freak out even this New York City pierce-and-brand style veteran of the skin artist’s trade.
“My body misrepresents me,” I say.
The whir of the needle stops as Ed’s dark eyes take a slow tour. “I don’t see how.”
No, how could he? He smells of clove cigarettes and filth, and against the fabric of my unbuttoned jeans, my hips begin to swell. So Eddie likes his girls a little plump, eh? With a nervous clearing of his skinny throat, he returns to his work, but it’s too late. Already, my tits are filling, pushing against the fine lace of my bra, growing under my T-shirt. My hair darkens a fraction. Ed won’t notice I’ve changed. He’ll just wonder why he didn’t realize before how gorgeous this rockabilly birthday girl is. I shove my hair back from my face, inventorying the way it now falls like Bettie Page bangs. It’s okay, unless it slows him down. I can’t risk that.
“Four down, two to go,” he grins up at me. “You doing okay?”
“I’m fine.”
His conscientious, gloved fingers avoid the white cotton framed by my jeans zipper and belt, but he rests his wrist against the inside of my now-plump thigh. His sunken eyes glance up over the heightened rise of my breasts, and his habitual dabs wipe blood that no longer wells from the finished “D.” If he notices, he will worry. “Do the last two letters,” I whisper, injecting sexy into my voice to hurry him.
I can’t hate him. He is too young and can’t help the way his dominatrix fetish molds my breasts into Wonder Woman cones. I can hate them, though. Just once, on my birthday, I would like to keep my native form. Ed works steadily on my “E,” humming along to the music grinding from the tattoo parlor’s massive speakers. The word “parlor,” with its vague overtones of powdery old ladies and prostitutes, comforts me somehow. I’m grateful for it. Tonight is likely to go badly. I’m meeting my boyfriend of seven months for dinner, and trying not to hope.
To him, I am beautiful and pure, saving myself for marriage and motherhood. He sees me as a virginal holdover from a more romantic age. He has spent entire nights simply kissing me. But he’s genuine twenty-first century and only faking patience. Tonight he is likely to dispose of pretense and ruin everything with a nineteenth-century idea. I catch myself twisting the hair-fine chain around my wrist, grating the brass key against the lock it can’t reach. I still my restless fingers and swallow a growl.
“I think you’ve got a killer body.” Ed has finished the “E.”
I give him a slow, midnight smile. “You’re about half right,” I tell him.
His needle stops again. “You’re sick, aren’t you? You’ve got cancer or something, you know, down there?” It’s cute, the way compassion wars with disappointment on the poorly mown field of his face.
“No. I’m perfectly healthy,” I tell him. “In fact, I don’t think I’ll ever die.”
It’s the most truthful thing to pass my hellfire-red lips in years. “I’m just …”
“Screwed?”
I laugh. “Not ever.” My, what an honesty streak I’m on.
“I could, you know,” Eddie shrugs, “help you out with that if you want?”
“I’m sure you could.” Better. Back to lying. “Don’t stop.”
“I didn’t.” But now he has. The electric needle hangs above the fork of my legs, immobile. His confusion peers across my newly fleshy belly, over the twin tit pyramids. I have screwed up again. I force a giggle.
“Are you high?” Ed touches the machine to me without breaking his gaze. I wince. He grins. “You’re high, aren’t you?”
The needle jabs again. Again I pretend it hurts me, and Ed’s black, Brylcreemed head bows over my pubis once more. He shares that with the ancient priests, at least – the pleasure he takes in my pain.
“You never told me why you wanted the tat.” Ed’s long, artist’s fingers rub ointment into my belly, oblivious to the lack of inflammation around his freshly-drawn lines. “Damned,” he reads aloud. His fingers dip below the elastic of my panties, spreading the slick protective gel to unmarked skin. “What did you say, your body betrayed you?”
“Something like that.”
“What, it go cheat on your boyfriend without you?” He winks, carefully taping gauze over his work. His fingers are smooth as his lines, but I don’t answer him.
“What’s his name?”
“Adam.”
“He’s a lucky guy.”
If Ed takes any longer taping my bandage, or running my credit card, or explaining my wound care instruction sheet, I run a very real risk of tearing his face off.
“And you’ve got some good anti-bacterial soap at home?”
“Yes.”
“You’ve got my phone number there. I put it on the sheet, so if you have any trouble – any questions – you call me, okay?”
I leave him at the cash register and walk, with as much poise as an impatient immortal can wrangle, to the electric blue bathroom, where I yank up my shirt and peel down the right corner of Ed’s meticulous bandage.
The letters are already fading. I sit on the toilet lid and stare at the dirty floor.
I get the same tattoo every February fourteenth. It’s my little birthday joke on myself, but today it just isn’t funny. Not with the dread of what Adam will do. Not with my breasts inflated to a size they haven’t been since the days when my brother Jack walked the London streets. In those days, a lady could stretch a courtship over a year, and be thanked for the privilege. A few months of kissing Adam, and the darling expects me to say “yes” tonight. Ten minutes of kissing Ed, and the ass would expect a different acquiescence. All I want is a tattoo – a bad girl brand on my perfect body to mark me with what I truly am. I check it again. The first “D” is gone.
“Eddie,” I call out the bathroom door, “Can you come back here a second?”
I put my alabaster hands on the stained basin of the sink and stare into the mirror above it. I wait for Ed’s reflection to show me my face in the silvered glass. He slouches in. I scowl at the pinup parody of myself and slip behind him to lock the door. I lean against the flimsy wood.
“Does it hurt?” he asks.
“Yes,” I lie. My perfect body can’t feel pleasure or pain, can’t transmit any sensation more acute than simple pressure. But my other senses are keen, and his masculine smell rises over the clove.
His hands take my waist – do they tremble just a little, tough guy? A choked prayer of desire escapes his tight throat, and I put my scarlet lips against his. I let him kiss me, lipstick messy between us for elongating seconds before I bite into his mouth.
I don’t mean to do it, but the subtle razor surfaces of my teeth and tongue erupt, grazing the insides of his mouth, making cuts too small for him to feel. It doesn’t take much to feed me, microscopic globules of blood from the tiny surface cuts my quilled teeth make in his lips and against his gums. I suck on his mouth and he shudders against me. He’s hungry too.
In his blood I taste only tedious, arcane desires, but am tempted by the whisper of the dreams that feeding full-tooth would bring. Still, I don’t strike. It’s not his fault. He worked diligently to give me what I asked for – a word for my flesh, a name for my body. But if his inky blood is all I can get of what I want, I’ll swallow what I can.
He grapples at the zipper of my jeans, and I recoil from the danger of his callused fingers finding my tattoo gone. He mutters something about hurting me and slides his innocent hands over my body, away from the bandage, to tug on my shirt. I pull it over my head for him. I will give him anything he wants with my sandcastle tits – I can’t feel them – just let me keep feasting on his stained and smoky mouth.
His delicate hands run up my back, the only ugly part of my body, and close over my breasts, grinding roughly, but my tongue laps at his gaping mouth. He would take me right here, if I let him, rough against the too-blue door. Sex is naked in the twenty-first century, naked as Ed’s need, and it fucks its angels fast and hungry in the nasty bathrooms where kids who find they can’t take the needle come to puke their humiliated guts out. If I could, I would let him, because “yes” is easier than “no” these days, and I’m not a cock-tease or a good girl. But I cannot, because of what I really am.
“Damned …” Ed’s fingertips graze the dressing again.
I remember to pretend it hurts me, and his cock throbs against my fat thigh. All the letters are gone, but desire still whimpers to him, and he brings his mouth down hard over mine again. I press his thin hand against the bandage. Why have I never thought of this before? Pain is easier to fake than pleasure. Could this – finally – be the loophole? Could it be suffering that frees me, instead of love?
“Look at you,” he whistles.
“Behold, the damned!” I make a comic little flourish and shimmy my tits.
He groans. “You don’t really believe that, do you?”
“Yeah, and I need you to, okay?”
“You’re kind of messed up, you know?”
Ed, Eddie, Pontius Edward – he will ask the questions, he will drive the tiny, electric nails into my flesh, but all the time, he’s washing his hands. He doesn’t want to know, doesn’t want to be involved. He’s curious, not concerned; a voyeur not an actor, and I scent fear beneath the cloves.
He can’t save me, the fucker. If I kiss him again, I will taste his hesitation. I lick my lips for lingering flecks, and he pushes his hair back with fingers that say “hate” across the knuckles. I smile into his innocent eyes and pull on my shirt. “You’re blocking the door,” I tell him.
“What the fuck? You think you’re leaving?”
I grip his earlobe between my forefinger and thumb. He scrambles, panting mutely away from the door as I bring my quilled fingernails together.
I leave him with his new piercing bleeding softly, already cobbling the story he’ll tell about the crazy chick he made out with in the bathroom on Valentine’s Day after he tattooed her “damned.” As his story ages, we will have had sex back there.
My breasts are already flattening by the time the tattoo parlor door slams behind me, shrinking toward the twenty-first century ideal of full and firm, but more athletic than sensual. At least I won’t be hungry when I meet Adam for dinner tonight.
I have been a fool. Ed could never have been my salvation. Just another fig. Adam, however, might be. If only tonight goes differently than my birthdays always do, if only I don’t have to leave Adam like I left Ed in the blue bathroom – blindly wanting me. They can’t help it. They all want me. I am the angel of desire.
Desire is an angel in hell.
Question of the Day: Since this excerpt is all about birthdays, I thought I'd ask: What's the best present or memory you have from one of your birthdays? Remember to leave a comment to be entered to win and Falling, Fly.

25 comments:

  1. ohoh, here I am, please count me in!!! for the past few weeks I saw it all around on the blogosphere and I absorbed all excerpts!!

    *dreaming* my first birthday - I will never forget it... ok, I can't really remember it either but I saw photos and I got a fantastic birthday present - my grandpa gave me a teddy which was as tall as I and the teddy is still sitting on my wardrobe!

    wish you all a fantastic day,
    Ina

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  2. I'm not big on birthday celebrations, but the one that comes to my mind is my 22nd when my boyfirend took me on a romantic weekend with spa and everything... )

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  3. I think any birthday that was special for me is when my friends and family remembered to say happy birthday and not merry christmas. :) I'm a week exactly before christmas but you would be surprise how many christmas wishes I get on my birthday compared to birthday.

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  4. Hi Skyler!

    I'm seeing so many good things about this book! Great excerpt!

    I'm going to say my 21st birthday! My parents took me to Las Vegas and we spent a week there celebrating!! I even ended up in the elevator at our hotel with ZZ Top who happened to be playing there and I won a $500 jackpot on the slots!! It was a long week but one I've never forgotten! :)

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  5. Hmm.. I too am not that big on birthday celebrations, but i have to admit my 21st was the best. I love old fashion things. So my family threw me an "surprise" Victorian Tea Party. It was meant to be held outside, but with my luck it rained. So my aunt Bev cleared out all of the furniture in her living and dinning room and set up things in there like it was supposed to be outside. My cousin even went out and got hanging flowers and ivy and put it on the walls to make it seem realistic. It was a very small gathering, but i loved it. ^^

    Melissa

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  6. My best birthday was 7 years ago. My husband and I had just returned from our honeymoon and he threw me a surprise party.

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  7. One of my best birthdays was the first one I didn't have to go to school on.

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  8. my birthday was usually the last day of school or near it.So my dad would always bring cake and pop in to celebrate,and my teachers would turn it into a huge party and played tons of games.As I got older I didn't really care for my birthday so I look back on hose memories fondly.
    My best birthday gift,was a joke...my niece bought me a mug with three handles on it..and it said you're 30 get a grip..she though she was so funny.

    As for the book,I've been interested since I first heard about it. And since have read some really good reviews for it

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  9. Oh I so want to read this book! I've been hearing wonderful things and it sounds like something I would love!
    My best birthday memory... I haven't had very good ones the last few years. I always had great birthdays when I was a kid though. Themed birthday parties, sleepovers, campouts, fun stuff like that. Great memories!

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  10. Thanks Tracy, and Hi Everybody!
    My birthday is three days before Christmas, so I hear ya, robsad! It's just gotten in my way ever since I was old enough to be responsible for other peoples Christmases. But this year, when "Falling," launched, we threw my writing career a birthday part on its actual birthday that more than made up for twenty years of missed parties! Ask Tracy, she was there, and I have the pictures to prove it ;-)

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  11. Oh wow! I don't remembe getting anything wonderful on my birthdays. Maybe a puppy??? Kinda sounds sad doesn't it.

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  12. Birthday stories, oh what fun.... :D My best and favorite Birthday memory was many years ago and it seems like only yesterday in my mind, I turned 21 and my Mom and her friends in our church threw me a party. This may not sound fun for a 21 year old but it blew me away at the time because I had been married for 2 years and had not had parties as a child growing up. My DH and myself were young and poor as church mice so the fact that Mom and the church ladies did this really touched my heart and stuck with me as proof that you are never too old a child for your parents and friends to show their love for you on your special day. I am now going on 50 and that is still my best Birthday memory!!!!

    jackie b central texas

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  13. When my twin boys were a year old, my hubby surprised me with a spa weekend, and it was a truly glorious birthday present. Couldn't believe how quiet it was,lol, and then to be pampered and waited on for two whole days was a slice of heaven.

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  14. We don't always have a big party, but I can expect to have a nice dinner and a Carvel's ice cream cake.

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  15. My favorite memory was spending it with close friends in high school.

    cindyc725 at gmail dot com

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  16. Well my past birthday was pretty great. My best friends planned my birthday with dinner and cake. They got me my favorite dinner which was a McDonalds Big Mac with candles in it. Also my cake was a brownie cake with peanut butter frosting. Yummy

    usignolc(at)yahooDOTcom

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  17. My favorite and unforgettable birthday present for me when i had my wedding 5 days before my birthday . it's like an early birthday present for me :)

    and at midnight of my birthday, all of my family knocked our room (me and hubby) to give us surprise !

    uniquas at ymail. com

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  18. I think the best birthday parties were the ones held at school surrounded by all my classmates, balloons, cake & candy!

    Would love to read this book!

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  19. Nice excerpt! I feel kind of bad for her.

    I think my favorite birthday memory is when I was in Junior High, I can't remember what age I turned but I remember having a sleep over birthday party with my friends and my mom made all kinds of snacks, including those little cheddar weenies my favorite.

    My dad couldn't always make it home for my birthdays so he'd take me out for dinner and buy me something or we'd just hang out together, and it'd just be the two of us, didn't get any better than that!

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  20. One year my Grandmother said she would grant a wish. I wished for the prettiest shoes in the store. My wish was granted. MAGIC!!!

    marypres@gmail.com

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  21. a pr earrings frm my daughter, I recently lost 1 and very sad.

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  22. My roommates threw me a surprise birthday party while we were in college. I was really surprised by the party and turn out because we were in the middle of a big snow storm!

    thanks,
    Tracey D

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  23. Oh Hi,

    I love the excerpt. My best was my 30th, were I and my best girlfriend threw a lingerie party. It was so much fun.

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  24. My best birthday was my ...Cough Cough... ith one. I told my husband he was taking me to Hawaii. I had already booked everything. It was the best.

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